Well look at this. 2009 is here, and so am I. I guess for all the tests doctors have done on me, and all the knowledge doctors have, there really is no expiration date on people. Before we move on, I would like to take this opportunity to figure out just why I am still alive. Still alive, despite all evidence to the contrary. As I look back on the past 20 years, I tried to count how many days I was in the hospital. Impossible, for it was many times more than one year. How many “should have died” episodes: well there were nearly 200 episodes of V-tac. Episodes which required some form of therapy be administrated by my defibrillator. About 20 shocks, and the rest I was paced out of the arrhythmia. Why am I alive? My heart barely pumps blood and my lungs only work at about 40%. I don’t know. There were lots of people praying for me on a lot of different occasions. I am grateful to those that prayed for me. They took the time to think about my welfare. Did it help? I don’t know. My wife stood by me through countless trips to the emergency room, and endless stays in the hospital. With lots of love and lots of care giving, did that keep me alive? I don’t know….. I am blessed to have 2 great kids who helped support their mother and I through all of this, while simultaneously trying to build their own lives. Perhaps their love and support kept me alive. I don’t know. Lastly, all the friends and family both here in Texas and scattered around the country called and came by to support my family and care for me. I guess that could have helped keep me alive. I don’t know. What I do know is this: I am blessed with a wonderful family, great friends and a loving wife. If I knew nothing else in this world, that would be enough for me.
I don’t know
May 14, 2010 by brha99
Posted in my story | Tagged death and living, dvt, Hospice, life, Living with heart disease, surviving a heart attack | 1 Comment
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